I had survived over a decade of childhood abuse from my mother. I worried about where food and dinner would come from and had an all-out fight every morning to get to school.
And I fought because school was my safe place and my only way out.
At 8, I contemplated suicide alone, not telling or asking anyone but deciding for myself. It took weeks, an episode of The Oprah Show would help save my life. Then and there, I made a promise never to commit suicide; this promise would save my life over and over.
No one knows your story like you. How all the little pieces fit together and why that “slight of comment” that “wasn’t that bad” was precisely that bad and was intended to be.
There will be a day when you’ve had e-fucking-nough. When that day arrives, follow along on Instagram, in the occasional newsletter, and check out the free course materials. These are the healing tools for inner alchemy, so you can start learning about the principles and concepts to heal like only you can.
If you want to learn more about me, I’ve included the uncanny details in the clown chakra ebook on the Lightwell app. When the student is ready, the teacher appears. This could not ring truer in my life; the ebook includes when these teachings came to me and why I stepped into the role of teaching them.
Extreme abuse creates emotional conflict, minor traumas can create misleading beliefs, and when there’s chaos in the external world, we have no choice but to create stillness within.
Healing is possible; it’s not hard; it’s uncomfortable, and that discomfort is temporary.
